Last year, four years after the stroke, I got married to a wonderful man. I remembered being put on a stretcher as paramedics asked the standard questions: what was my name? There hasn't been a huge amount of buzz around it but it's early days, and Mark Rylance is an interesting casting for the titular Big Friendly Giant, There's a lot of expectation on director Damien Chazelle's shoulders following the success of Whiplash, one of the smallest films ever to have been nominated for a Best Picture Oscar. Sodderland saw parallels between the almost hallucinatory things she was experiencing and David Lynch films. But when I looked back, the words had slid off the page. We never wanted this to be seen as just a film about recovery, because its so much more than that, Robinson adds. Before the stroke, I think my friends found my cynical sense ofhumour entertaining. I was really moved. Starring: Sophie Robinson, Lotje Sodderland Watch all you want. Following severe brain injuries, the NHS refers patients to inpatient neurological rehabilitation units for psychological, linguistic and physical treatment. Q: How did your family and friends cope with your illness, especially for your main caregivers? Thedrugs numbed my brain, but I was paranoid and panicked. 2 months after her strokeshe enrolls in a 3-month long program ina neurological rehabilitation center for people with brain injurieswhere she undergoes psychological and linguistic treatment. 2023 Cond Nast. She has a new partner, a new job as a film-maker and cinematographer and is excited for the future. I couldn't speak at first, or read, and my thoughts were not linear or logical. When we first see Sodderland in the riveting new Netflix documentary My Beautiful Broken Brain (premiering Friday after a run at SXSW), shes recording herself on her iPhone in the hospital shortly after regaining consciousness. It didnt, she says, After her stroke Lotje Sodderland tried electronic pulses to fire up parts of the brain responsible for reading. I do really live in the present, which is something that a lot of people aspire to, but for me, has happened as a result of the brain damage. I thought, I wonder if hes had a brain hemorrhage? UNIRTE AHORA En este documental, descubriremos por qu David Lynch tuvo un papel clave en la recuperacin de Lotje Sodderland. JOIN NOW Executive producer David Lynch played a pivotal role in Lotje Sodderland's recovery, as explained in this documentary. This is a touchingpersonal story of learning to live with a new self, makinga newlife plan, and the enormous strength and optimism that it takes to achieve this feat. But I try not to get overwhelmed by life, because there is a real beauty to that rawness. Butbeforethe end of the therapy, Lotje experiences generalized seizure and is taken to the hospital. As Tom chops the kindling while I write this, I feel so very fortunate to be here in the sumptuous stillness, with the singing of tawny owls in the evening. EMMY AWARDS. Mr Tan shared: We started going for Chit Chat Cafe in May and got connected with more people for extra support It was fortunate as around this time, I got into a road accident and broke three bones in my foot. I was emerging after two days inan induced coma, after having an intracerebral brain haemorrhage - an unprovoked bleeding of the brain - at the age of 34. Through extensive in-patient and out-patient rehabilitation that included occupational therapy, speech therapy, visits with both a psychologist and psychiatrist, she makes a profound recovery, despite the post-seizure regression she experienced following the experimental transcranial magnetic stimulation (TMS) treatments. Aphasia SG is a not-for-profit organisation supporting persons with aphasia and their caregivers. When he agreed to put his name to it, he insisted that Lotje and I share the executive producer credit with him. *Names changed as requested by the couple. "Things were all deconstructed and disconnected and didn't make sense, so making the film was a way to relearn how to tell a story." At some point I was able to communicate with my brother that I really needed to get in touch with this woman. And so began my new life. A sketch of the monsters she saw in visions and dreams. I would record messages for friends, and they would record messages and send them back to me. She is able to understand others and, for the most part, she can speak but she is often unable to find the right words, although they are often on the tip of her tongue. To look at me, you wouldnt have noticed a thing. My mum lent me a fiver. "I went to meet her the day after she got out of hospital," says Robinson. I was conscious, but there was nothing there: no thought, no logic, no reason. When I tried to wake her, I saw a pool of saliva on the pillow, and noticed her speech was slurred and movements were weak.. I am very fortunate that my friends and family are very loving and supportive. My brain no longer had the ability to switch off. Lotjeis a fighter and she has the good fortune to have access to therapy. Before my stroke, Isaw him, his wife and daughters most weeks. My Beautiful Broken Brain is a 2014 documentary film about the life of 34-year-old Lotje Sodderland after she suffered a hemorrhagic stroke as a result of a congenital vascular malformation in November 2011, initially experiencing aphasia, the complete loss of her ability to read, write, or speak coherently. The initial goal of 30,000 was exceeded by 7340. Lotje Sodderland is an award winning writer and filmmaker, who started her career as a documentarian at the Institute of Public Policy Research (IPPR) and advertising agency Mother in London. At first, my writing looked like a childs. In a post-surgery self-filmed footage, she shares her excitementof not being dead. I really wanted to discover what my limit-less possibilities were in this new world, but I did find it very challenging as the process took a long time, and I am not a very patient person. And now Im starting from the beginning. Expect major face-palming from Trekkies in July. He invited us to this strange, magical event in London a few days later, where they were going to beam him in. I was found unconscious on the toilet floor at 1pm that afternoon. Here, she speaks to Telegraph Women about the day she became a different person. I had regressed. David Festenstein, who has written a blog about his recovery from a stroke, has suggested that the video and audio recording capabilities on our smartphones can play a vital role in stroke recovery. Lotje Sodderland is known for My Beautiful Broken Brain (2014), Limbo (2021) and Can You Rebuild My Brain? I was almost back to square one. Lotje reveals her tips on adjusting to acquired communication disorder aphasia and finding a new way of life in her present reality. Since its inception, Aphasia SG has expanded its free community activities to include aphasia choir, virtual programmes and public outreach events such as movie screenings. Later on, I learned the stroke was caused by a rare development of malformed blood vessels in my brain. To revist this article, visit My Profile, then View saved stories. Speech therapist Goh Huai Zhi shares his understanding of the brain and insights on aphasia recovery. An emergency brain surgery saves her life. We definitely thought about contacting Apple when we needed money. Im grateful to have learnt so much more about the challenges of being human - so early on. March 22, 2016. Lotje Sodderland explores beauty and positivity after a traumatic health scare At age 34, film director Lotje Sodderland was struck by an intracerebral haemorrhagic stroke after a night out with her friends. I began to use Siri on my iPhone, to listen to what I was writing, and it felt great. Now I still tell stories, but I tell visual stories. He laughed and said, Well, Im happy youre still here.. Registered office: 1 London Bridge Street, SE1 9GF. But at the end of the program, she still cant read. Despite my insistence that I couldnt do it, my friend Lucy was convinced she would be able to get me to write again. Mrs Tan said: Right now, a year on, my language skill is like a primary three student. Wed had one meeting, and she really stuck in my mind. As I got more confident, I filled pages with words written in thick capital letters words that made sense to me, but that no one else could interpret. Itried the radio, but the sounds were overwhelming. I had faltered, and the words were gone Then Iblacked out, consumed by a four-hour convulsive seizure. I dont use words in the same way that I did before. The therapy isnt easy, it seems to her that it will take forever to improve. Lotje Sodderland Sat 22 Nov 2014 02.30 EST Last modified on Fri 1 Dec 2017 12.22 EST A trailer for My Beautiful Broken Brain, Lotje's documentary about her recovery, made with director Sophie. Youre also faced with that dilemma, as a filmmaker, of knowing this is someone who needs to go through recovery. This together with various sequences showing the world from her point-of-view at that time, including for example visual misperceptions (hallucinations), produce a rather personal storytelling style.[3][4][5]. It was a dreary Sunday in November 2011. And she looks great! Her friends and family are relieved. 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I struggled to find the logic in a toothbrush, or the system that goes with the washing of hair, even though I knew (without really understanding) that these behaviours were a necessary part of human life. She lost two years of her memory, forgetting her own daughter and even asking whether she herself was Chinese. Before the stroke, I was a documentary producer in London, living in what I now realise was a very high-level cognition world. Do you remember Lotje? Ready for action: A caregivers journey unfolds for feisty grandma, Keeping love fun even when illness strikes, Lotje Sodderland on finding her limit-less possibilities after acquiring aphasia. A house cleaner desperately searches for her husband as a dreaded criminal syndicate dredges up past tragedies and ultimately drives her to violence. Lotje describes herself as hard-working, a traveler, someone who has lots of friends, someone who loves to read. Here she meets scientists using technology to repair "broken" brains. Tom Hanks is your guy. An acquired language impairment, aphasia typically occurs after a stroke or traumatic brain injury and can affect a persons ability to communicate, both verbal or written. 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With the help of my Occupational Therapist, I could go to the bank, take out money and manage my bills which gave me a sense of accomplishment. Somebody gave me back my iPhone in the hospital, a few days after the stroke, and I quickly re-learned how to use it and started recording myself. You see what happens in the film. When film-maker Lotje Sodderland had a severe stroke, she lost the ability to speak, read, write or think coherently. Through them, I found an opportunity to become a better version of myself by focusing on kindness and being less absorbed in myself. I started to have dark, repetitive thoughts like I was not getting better, not able to get a job or be independent.The classes were also useful for calming the mind as after a brain injury, it is so hard to switch off the negative thoughts to rest or sleep. A white name tag was strapped around my wrist. So it was sad. On one hand, it's landed a cast of incredibly funny actresses, but on the other, another reboot? It is run by a team of dedicated speech therapist volunteers. Girl, interrupted: A scene from Lotje Sodderlands My Beautiful Broken Brain, The Coen brothers' latest film might be their most ambitious yet. Now, he says, I dont interact with people in the same way, that I have become introspective. "It wasn't a logical reality, it was another dimension. This was always a possibility due to her stroke, it turns out, with or without the experimental therapy, althoughthe TMS may have contributed. I had to. I have to use a tablet to write messages for my husband. My vision was overcome with lurid green and purple grids. I knew who I was, and I recognised my mother and brother -but I didnt know anything else. I had no strategy to survive any catastrophes of the heart was it utterly unwise to expose myself to such potential loss? I enjoyed the daily trip, and being surrounded by neuroscientists; Iliked the sense of being an active participant, rather than a passive patient. Registered office: 1 London Bridge Street, SE1 9GF. Iyearned for solitude. I spent a long time constructing a message, and recording what I felt. A WORLD WITHOUT WORDS. I would spend every day for a month at the Institute of Neurology in Queen Square in London, where live electrodes would be strapped to my head, zapping my neurones into submission. Mr Tan quit his job and poured his heart into finding the best care for his partner by doing his own research and seeking the advice of family and healthcare professionals. Sodderland describes the process of making My Beautiful Broken Brain as essential to her recovery. He subsequently became an executive producer on the film, "which definitely didn't hurt, having his name on your poster" notes Robinson. Unable even to contemplate the idea of fear, it felt as if I had become fear itself. Videos First, the research assistant would measure my skull to make sure it wasnt growing or shrinking (it wasnt). Her friends describe her as someone impassioned, who was busy multitasking, writing films, writing in general, always readingthick books, someone very articulate. At the start, my listening, speaking and understanding skills were not good. She had finished that bottle some time ago and kept it as a reminder to get a new one on our next trip to Malaysia.. She hears intense sounds. He would always say, Send me more of those video messages! When I was in California, I said, Do you want to have coffee? And he said, Sure, come round! Hes been a very central figure in the positive transformation and understanding of all that darkness. Though the film showed mostly positive scenes, there were many difficult moments that were not captured, such as my mental health struggles which are an invisible part of recovery. Platoon director Oliver Stone takes on a very important and timely story. I looked at my phone and I didnt know how it worked and I couldnt tell the time or anything, she says. I was suddenly in a different world to the one I had inhabited before. Mit: . How did you adjust to life after experiencing a haemorrhagic stroke and aphasia? He genuinely seemed really interested in my experience. She started taking video-selfies of herself while still in hospital, and two weeks later contacted documentary filmmaker Sophie Robinson to enlist her help. He basically said how excited he was by my brain. Some other friends, however, found it uncomfortable to hang out with an ill person or be around death. 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Lotje Sodderland. Apart from the scar under my hair, my face and body were perfectly intact. The challenge is to rebuild your identity, Sodderland told me when I spoke with her and Robinson by phone from Austin, Texas, earlier this week. Clint Eastwood will direct this biopic, about an airline captain who was hailed as a national hero in the US after successfully executing an emergency water landing on the Hudson River off Manhattan, It's 2015 and Bridget is now pouring her soul into an iPad rather than a diary. Sodderland is lucky to be alive, having suffered a massive stroke which left her unable to speak, read, write and perform even simple tasks. But can he make it entertaining the way The Big Short did with the financial crisis? Lotje Sodderland was a digital producer at a hip London creative agency when she suffered a stroke that decimated her language skills and threw her sensory perception into disarray. JOIN NOW Executive producer David Lynch played a pivotal role in Lotje Sodderland's recovery, as explained in this documentary. But I think its fantastic. The first ability I regained was speech. "He knows about the non-linear narratives and the subtle relationship between the mundane and the surreal." He explained: The paramedics had seen a bottle of cough syrup in the bedroom and assumed the worst. At the same time, Ive learned to look at the world in a really different way. [laughs]. I earn a living that way, but I no longer read and write. He had called the ambulance asmy eyeballs disappeared into the back ofmyhead. We'll find out in September with Antoine Fuqua's remake of 1960's The Magnificent Seven. And in a way? The last three years have seen a series of milestones the first holiday, the first solo trip. But there is real value in my new life: its much more meaningful and focused, and that includes my relationships. Before, I weighed my quality of life according to how busy I was, both at work and socially. When did you decide to send him a message?LS: Toward the end of the first year, Sophie was encouraging me to try. To our great surprise he wrote an email a few days later back. And while I still work in film, it's in the visual side of things as aself-shooting director. Falling in love was as immediate, raw and unfiltered as if I were doing it for the first time. Pretending she was an actor, playing a character in a film, also helped give her distance from the more distressing things she went through in hospital. Please, The subscription details associated with this account need to be updated. Contact My brother describes the old me as extremely dynamic, extremely social, very impassioned. This interview has been condensed and edited. Lotje: When an illness like that hits suddenly, it is very difficult for a person to adjust to the new condition as you lose all the elements of who you are job, independence, and even your ability to communicate. I had spent the weekend with friends, watching fireworks over London, and trying to make impossible things happen for a deadline at work, where I was a documentary producer. Large parts of the film consist of material filmed by herself on her iPhone. How does he know all this stuff?. I think it was the day after Lotje came out of hospital that we met. ISTANBUL FILM FESTIVAL. Starring: Sophie Robinson, Lotje Sodderland Watch all you want. I was so sad to be slow and stupid again. I kept forgetting I was a patient, too, until I saw my name tag and my bed. It later turned out that my stroke had been caused by a rare developmental malformation of blood vessels in my brain: something like this could have happened at any time. I'd lost the ability to retain information so I wanted to record this new and terrifying place I'd found myself in. She has tried reading childrens books with family, rewatching movies with subtitles on, and browsing cooking blogs. It seemed entirely impossible that I would be able to love someone else and even more improbable that someone would love the damaged new me. Trained as a paramedic during his national service days, Mr Tan instinctively called for an ambulance immediately. When you hear someones just had a brain hemorrhage, youre not going to say no. "Having lost the ability to create a linear narrative it became really important to me to tell this story," she says. Imanaged to call him and he found mefive minutes later, crouching on the floor outside myflat. My brother and I have always been close and, after we left home, we lived very near each other. She woke up in her east London flat with a blinding headache and. During that first strange, solitary fortnight, I had an idea myfirst linear thought. My life is now split into two: before the stroke, and after. Iremembered trying to blink the blindness away, my hand lurching wildly into space, searching for my phone but the grids were everywhere. We seeLotje struggle with the first sessions of cognitive evaluation and speech therapy, the embarrassment from not being able to remember simple word, her nervous laughter, her apologies for not making a lot of sense, her courageoussmile turning into uncontrollable tears of frustration and sadness. Whitney Houston had recently died, so Ichose to tell the story of the time my friend Flora lived out a teen fantasy to go to Star Trax atthe Trocadero in Piccadilly Circus, to record avery warbled IWill Always Love You. Ilooked at my clothes and their complex mechanics baffled me. The fog was lifting. Original reporting and incisive analysis, direct from the Guardian every morning. I did something that I normally never do, which is: I took a camera with me. Five years ago, one of those people. Ive got a really nice camera, and I make documentaries. Really? Focus on who your true friends are. 17 Oscar-Nominated Netflix Films to Watch in Honor of Awards Season, The Best (and Most Anticipated) Movies of 2023 So Far, The 70 Best Romantic Comedies of All Time. She was suffering a massive brain haemorrhage due to a rare developmental malformation of the blood vessels in her brain. Like many of the UK's 1.2 million stroke survivors, Sodderland spent months trying to relearn how to navigate this new world, where thoughts followed no structure and words lost their meaning. Shed been put into an induced coma, endured emergency surgery to her parietal and temporal lobes. I had to figure out for myself that I was never going to be the same as before and find out how can I work with the new me and see the beauty and positivity in my new limitations. Lotje improves, she can now speak fairly fluently. As part of that documentation, I was having this imaginary conversation with him. Midway through the night, she wakes up with an excruciating headache that is so strong thatshe thinks she is going to die. I got this phone call from a colleague of Lotjes who had been in that meeting. David Lynch plays an interesting role in this narrative. There was a lot of Siri action involved there. Then she asks: What if all this evidence is removed? He has this connection with deconstructed language. (2018). By the end of my first week out of hospital, I was able to speak, but without much coherence. Sodderlands stroke left her with significant cognitive problems: impaired speech and memory; trouble with sequencing events; distorted, sometimes psychedelic vision; and an inability to read or write that persists to this day. Thoughts occurred to me. Access unlimited streaming of movies and TV shows with Amazon Prime Video Sign up now for a 30-day free trial. But I had this desire to document everythinga sense of wanting to make a documentary, but not in a very logical, coherent way. Filmmaker Lotje Sodderland documents her recovery process from the hemorrhagic stroke she had at 34 and the new life she builds in the aftermath. Id forgotten her name, and I couldnt really explain what I wanted. I'm not able to work to the same level, and multi-task,as I did before. She turns to the camera and says: Anything can happen, at any time, to any degree. But no more than the average Lynch fan. One morning, I put the Biro to an empty sheet of paper, and with asudden momentum, my hand began to write the words that Lucy, who is Australian, had dictated: Throw the bloody boomerang back, mate. A phrase! SXSW. When he dropped me off at the station I said: Ithink were going to fall in love, and he said: Ithink so, too.. I went to see some fireworks with friends in the evening, followed by a trip to the pub, and returned to my flat at around 10pm. Watch Vogue.coms most popular videos now: By signing up you agree to our User Agreement and Privacy Policy & Cookie Statement. Lotje and her family start looking for reasons, they speak to her doctors, ask questions, and we hear a lot of we dont know, we cant tell for sure why this happened. The world sounded loud: a passing ambulance; human laughter; a howling fox; birdsong everything passed through me at the same piercing pitch. I think its quite unusual to survive if you're by yourself and have a brain haemorrhage -as it's almost impossible to have the ability to figure out what to do. Lotje, what did David Lynch mean to you before your stroke?LS: I got into Twin Peaks when I was a teenagerreally, really into Twin Peaks. Lotje reveals her tips on adjusting to acquired communication disorder aphasia and finding a new way of life in her present reality. The documentary does a great job showing thatstroke-related disability is often not only a loss of one function or another, it is a perturbation of ones entire existence, of ones self-image. She managed to get herself dressed and stumbled to a nearby hotel, before blacking out completely. We see her brightenwhen she triumphantly comes up withthe word nephew pointing to a picture of her youngniece. The day of the stroke was fairly typical for me - a Sunday in November 2011. She doesnt try to make it sound romantic. Filmmaker Lotje Sodderland documents her recovery process from the hemorrhagic stroke she had at 34 and the new life she builds in the aftermath. They looked at me with sad eyes; I wished I could say something to assuage their sadness. I didnt even know what assessment meant, or what I was being assessed for. He has only ever known me in my new incarnation, and who knows -he may not have liked the old me. Filmmaker Lotje Sodderland documents her recovery process from the hemorrhagic stroke she had at 34 and the new life she builds in the aftermath. But at this stage the doctors couldnt tell me why Ihad lost the ability to speak, read, write or think coherently. Founded in 2018 by volunteer speech therapists, Aphasia SG aims to create a community where patients with aphasia can bond and speak comfortably at their flagship programme, Chit Chat Cafe. Ive also had to majorly downsize my friendship circle, because of some residual communication malfunctions. Facebook gives people the power to share and makes the world more open and connected. [6], Lotje began recording video-selfies just a few days after the stroke, while still in the hospital. But after a few months, the intense regime soon got taxing on the couple. This was a very dramatic change and it happened very suddenly, but you have to accept that change is part of life. 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